Why did I start this channel - WiccasWay?

 Why did I start this channel, WiccasWay?  I had change both my channels up. My first channel:  Nerissa Taylor  is all over the place but I need to settle down and figure out what my channel is all about.  I feel like that channel is more in how I feeling and what going on at the moment one day I could make videos about quizzes to my new thing I'm working on. 

At first I was into coding heavy like around 2018 I even went to a bootcamp to become a Software Developer, but I didn't finish.  It is time now to finish stuff.  I got into a love hate spiraling, self sabatoging myself about coding period.  I just recently got back on Freecodecamp to get back into JavaScript because that is my achilles heel.  I never fully grasp JavaScript when I was doing bootcamp and my anger and frustration made me say fuck it.  So reason why I'm saying this is because that was the purpose of the Nerissa Taylor Channel in the beginning now I don't know.  So, I decided to make WiccasWay You Tube Channel in 2022 my goal then was at first for craft ideas and some faceless videos dealing with health, positivity, and dark psychology because that whats going on with me.  I need to hone in at what I'm good at. In which I still fully don't know to be honest. I know I getting older and my focus is self care by working through all this added drama I make for myself.  

I been good lately as far as trying to start being consistent with these healthy tips videos for people over 45.  I brought Invideo studio like 2 years ago to make videos and learn video editing and get into this craft.  I think when I make videos it doesn't feel like pressure.  I like creating something out of nothing. As compare to coding if you make one error in code the whole thing won't work.  And we know what happen Friday with the world of IT, so to me thats to much pressure.  But with videos I can be myself and not feel judge or mislabel as an old fart that can't keep up with the youngins.  I be 49 in less than a month now, thats hitting me.  Its alot of other stuff going on in the background with my outside employment right now.  I just need to write to get the stuff out my head right now.  I feel like I'm overloaded.  That might be another blog for another time.  I don't even know if anyone will read this but I hope if you do that just take this ride with me and believe me I will figure this thing called life and YouTube out and be of best service to you all.